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at 2:42 PM

彷彿上一分鐘　你還陪在我左右

還以為我們會　開花結果

我還記得玫瑰色天空

卻模糊了我們的臉孔

哼過的歌到底是什麼內容




彷彿已經自由　下一刻我變成風

吹過你的領空　差點失控

回憶在夜裡鬧得很兇

我想我可以明白你所有的痛

想讓你知道我懂　卻擔心言不由衷




我們都接受　一定是彼此不夠成熟

在愛情裡分不了輕重

誠實得過了頭　不能退後也無法向前走

愛是一個自私的念頭　把寂寞消除的理由

剩下的那些感動　能記得多久


at 2:08 PM

Hey～我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的 有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

Hey～我真的好想你
太多的情绪 没适当的表情
最想说的话 我该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你 没有过去
我不会有伤心

但是有如果还是要爱你
如果没有你 我在哪里

又有什么可惜 反正一切来不及
反正没了自己
Hey～我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里

Hey～我真的好想你
现在窗外面又开始下着雨
眼睛干干的 有想哭的心情
不知道你现在到底在哪里

Hey～我真的好想你
太多的情绪没适当的表情
最想说的话
我应该从何说起
你是否也像我一样在想你

如果没有你 没有过去
我不会有伤心
但是有如果还是要爱你

如果没有你 我在哪里 又有什么可惜
反正一切来不及 反正没了自己

Hey～我真的好想你
不知道你现在到底在哪里
你是否像我一样在想你


.......


at 3:41 AM

All I want is just for you to believe me.
Although I know you've been hurt before.
But cant you just open your heart and believe me?

I've also been through hurt..
It hurts so so much that it's even more painful than sticking a knife into your heart.

I really thought of giving up.
Giving up of this relationship.
And giving up on you although I'm still holding on and having hope in this relationship..


But this words...



"When dalang loses his memory.
bao zhu kept looking for him.
kept trying to let him regain his memory..
It may be just a drama too idealistic..
But the morale behind it is practical..
Bao zhu did not gave up cos she really love him..
If u really love ur joseph dalang u shouldn't give up too!"


Then i understand it all...


You came into my life.
You became my dalang.
I fell for you..

You always say what did you do to make me love you so much?
Here's the answer...
I love you because of your dan chun.
Because of your ke ai.
And your pure heart.

These things made me clear that you're so different from any other guy I've been through.
And I cant just let someone so special to me leave just like that.

Although we didn't do much things with each other..
Even if we spend just a moment of time together..
These small moments added a lot of sweetest memories with you.
:)

You need some time out in this relationship...
I can understand.

Because of work stress..
Because of friends..
Plus another load of having a girlfriend to carry..

I will wait no matter how long it is.
It may take a month..
2 months..
A year...
Or more...

I will give you your time...
And take things slow..
Till you can open up to me again..

I really don't mind if we become just friends..
Because I know by being friends we can spend much more time to know each other better.



All we need is time....

I just believe....
Believe that my dalang will come back to me.
:)


at 2:00 PM

Things do happen unexpectedly.

*sigh*

Don't wanna go into details about it.
At least we're still good friends.
We still can hang out together..
But maybe wont be as much as we used to...


Hmmm..


I will miss him.


我会很爱很爱你.
一百个世纪

很爱很爱你.
没人能代替.

我的心永远不变.
我最爱最爱的你.

:)

......


Anyways..
I've been watching this!!!

Really nice drama!!

And Jerry Yen is so damn gorgeously handsome!!
>.<~~


at 2:32 PM

I'm in need of a freaking job!!!

Been sending fucking loads of resumes to different companies but non replied.

Seriously.

FML!!!!
>.<~~

Lastly...

Been missing dear loads.
:)

*hugsss!!!!*


at 7:57 PM

Since i'm at home rotting and have nothing better to do...

I shall update my dead blog.
:)

Just wanna say that my birthday celebration was a BLAST!!
It's my first time ever celebrating in a club.
With all my wonderful "kuay ji" (crazy) bunch of friends.
Not to forget my lovely dear.
:D

Becos the last few yrs was either I was single and cant think of anywhere to celebrate..
Or i'm attached but my ex(s) forbid me to club and drink.
So yeah.
My life was plain boring.

But anywaysssss...
This year was different!!
I enjoyed myself and....
I had a super BIG surprise from my dear~~~~
videos are in my Facebook!!!


The surprise is a ring!!
And dear went to took it for engraving..
So it turns out like this!!!

In case u cant see the words..
It's engraved on my ring: Joseph.T
And dear's ring: Amanda.T
And in case u dunno what "T" stands for...
It's dear's surname Tan.
:)

The other side engraved our anniversary date: 14 Feb 2010
Simply love it to bits!!!!
But mostly love my dear more ofcos!!!
^^

But overall guess darling is the one who helped out dear to keep the secret.
BUT!!!!!
I kinda guessed it already.
LOL!!!
=X


And so....
The next day was my actual birthday..
Was out with Amanda Yeo, darling, YH, Baba, KY and dear.
:)

And it's another surprise!!

A birthday cake at a playground.
:)

I love surprises.

I love my these new bunch of kuay ji(crazy) friends♥.

I love my darling♥ more & more!!!
LOL!!!

I love my new life.

And lastly...
I love my new love♥.
My dalang♥!!
Also known as my dear♥!!!
:D




Loves loves~~ ♥


at 1:58 AM

My Birthday is over~~~!!!!!!

And damn it i'm 1 yr older.
>.<~~~

Time really flies.

Enjoyed my birthday celebration to the MAX!!
@ Rebel for my birthday countdown and had a mini celebration the next day.
:)

Surprises after another.
Super loves!!!!

Photos are all in my Facebook!!!
:D


at 4:46 AM

This is gonna be a quick post.
Cos i wanna head to dreamland sooon~~



Met up with Marcus @ Cityhall at about 1pm in the afternoon.
Headed to Suntec Starbucks and he helped me with my now dead Iphone.
But end up will cant revive it.
Damn sad lah!!
:(

After awhile his gf came and join us.
Walked around and I took a train to Harbourfront to meet Cheryl.
Asked about my phone at the Singtel shop.
But my phone still cant be helped!!!!
They told me to go over to Com center instead.

Met up with Cheryl finally and then we train-ed to Somerset.
Walked around to find the bloody building.
And about 15-20 minutes later we finally found it.
Fucking tiring.
Zzzz...

They said i'm getting my new set of phone today!!!
Weee-u-weeeet!!!

Had dinner at PS.
And then dear came.
:)

Miss him sooo soooo much!!!
So happy to see him once more after so many days!!!
And I also miss sitting on dear's bike too.
Heheh~


Went to near Singapore Flyers to sit down slack and chit chat.
That's always the time I hopped time would stay still.
Simply love spending time with dear.
Just wanna hug him oh-so-tight and dont wanna let go~
>.<~~

Lastly..
Met up with darling!!!!
As usual we've got so many to talk about!!!
Think one day also cant finish talking.
LOL!!!

Finally...
Home-ed.

And now i'm on my way to...
Zzzzzzz.....


at 2:16 AM

Just back from China & Hong Kong.
Bloody 5 days felt like weeks to me!!!!
Damn!!
Misses dear loads!!
>.<~~


It was a super suay and super suffering trip I've ever had and been through!!!

Firstly, my Iphone was out of service for 2 freaking days at China.

Secondly, my Iphone suddenly switched off and when I turn it on again it cant work.
Cos it had to be connected to

Thirdly, so I went to a internet cafe to try to fix it. End up it blacked out and now can't even bloody turn on!!!

And when trying to fix my phone there were super many tiny flies at the internet cafe!!!
Legs and feet kana bitten like fuck!
And now my legs are filled with red sports.
-.-zzz..
And now I feel like I kana those weird diseases.

Lastly...
I can't s.m.o.k.e!!!!!!
>.<~~

For 5 F***ING days I didn't even touched a bloody cig!!!
Please bow down to me~~
LOL!!!

I told darling if she doesn't gets my msg that i'm back home means i'm dead
either at China or Hong Kong.
For lack of nicotine.
-.-"

But surprisingly I survived.
Now i'm just waiting for my mum to sleep so I can my needs of nicotine for these past 5 days.